So, you may not know, that our latest adventure is that of buying a house. Which no one tells you is quite stressful. Especially if your an insanely frugal person like I am, any number that involves so many zeros is hard to bear. And we find that this is where faith comes in and remember God has a plan for us, a place prepared for us, and knows the desires of our heart. But although i know that, its hard to really truely have complete faith in it.
Yes I know that I should, but the good Lord knows that I am an absolute control freak. And of course, this whole house buying thing is not going exactly as planned.
So our dream -- a good piece of property (5 acres or more to be exact) where we can live until we have the means to build our own house, and flat enough for horses and a nice 8 stall barn and arena so we can board horses without it being a huge production. And we found it! Ok, well kind of.
Listed at $250,000 is 10 acres. In the area we want (close to family and the schools we like), that is flat although it has many drainage problems, and a house that we could live in. But the house is old and has some issues that would need to be fixed before we moved in for safety reasons and for most of the year there is some standing water in the dips of the property. No big deal right. Right. Except the seller does not want to budge on price.
When I originally heard that it was the response I should have. It's okay. If it is where we are supposed to end up then it will happen. If it doesn't happen I know God has something better in store.
But then my doubt comes in. What if it really is a fair price for that much land in the area. Am I being the crazy old coot that won't pay more than a quarter for each thing at the garage sale? Or am I valid in what I want to pay? Could we really pay more? Well we could but do I want to?
Ughh. then poop. my faith is not that stable. not that solid. what on earth do I do?
Go for it? Leave it? What if then someone else buys it? What if...
And then I remember when Sky and I first got married. I had just graduated from school and did not have a job. He was working at a pizza place. And we had about $50 budgeted out a month for groceries. It was crazy. It was tight. And we were content.
God provides for us all the time, and it is easy to forget that as much as we try to control every aspect of our lives, really He has a wayyy better idea. That is where faith comes in. Which obviously I need some work at because it is a big and scary world with big and scary decisions which I won't always know how to decided. But if I take the time to sit down, pray, and calm down I can see Him working. And if He really has prepared this place for us like I feel He has, I need to trust and have faith that it will happen in the best way possible. His time.
So on a personal note, please pray for us on this adventure, that we may have faith and peace about it, and remember to rely on God, because He has always saved us.
And my prayer for you; that you have faith in all you do. And that your faith grows to be solid in the Lord. And to trust what He calls you to do because even if it is hard, He has something better for you.
I Will Trust -- John Mark McMilan
and just incase your looking for the answer to your questions today
Mark 11:22 "Have faith in God, Jesus answered"
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