So, you may not know, that our latest adventure is that of buying a house. Which no one tells you is quite stressful. Especially if your an insanely frugal person like I am, any number that involves so many zeros is hard to bear. And we find that this is where faith comes in and remember God has a plan for us, a place prepared for us, and knows the desires of our heart. But although i know that, its hard to really truely have complete faith in it.
Yes I know that I should, but the good Lord knows that I am an absolute control freak. And of course, this whole house buying thing is not going exactly as planned.
So our dream -- a good piece of property (5 acres or more to be exact) where we can live until we have the means to build our own house, and flat enough for horses and a nice 8 stall barn and arena so we can board horses without it being a huge production. And we found it! Ok, well kind of.
Listed at $250,000 is 10 acres. In the area we want (close to family and the schools we like), that is flat although it has many drainage problems, and a house that we could live in. But the house is old and has some issues that would need to be fixed before we moved in for safety reasons and for most of the year there is some standing water in the dips of the property. No big deal right. Right. Except the seller does not want to budge on price.
When I originally heard that it was the response I should have. It's okay. If it is where we are supposed to end up then it will happen. If it doesn't happen I know God has something better in store.
But then my doubt comes in. What if it really is a fair price for that much land in the area. Am I being the crazy old coot that won't pay more than a quarter for each thing at the garage sale? Or am I valid in what I want to pay? Could we really pay more? Well we could but do I want to?
Ughh. then poop. my faith is not that stable. not that solid. what on earth do I do?
Go for it? Leave it? What if then someone else buys it? What if...
And then I remember when Sky and I first got married. I had just graduated from school and did not have a job. He was working at a pizza place. And we had about $50 budgeted out a month for groceries. It was crazy. It was tight. And we were content.
God provides for us all the time, and it is easy to forget that as much as we try to control every aspect of our lives, really He has a wayyy better idea. That is where faith comes in. Which obviously I need some work at because it is a big and scary world with big and scary decisions which I won't always know how to decided. But if I take the time to sit down, pray, and calm down I can see Him working. And if He really has prepared this place for us like I feel He has, I need to trust and have faith that it will happen in the best way possible. His time.
So on a personal note, please pray for us on this adventure, that we may have faith and peace about it, and remember to rely on God, because He has always saved us.
And my prayer for you; that you have faith in all you do. And that your faith grows to be solid in the Lord. And to trust what He calls you to do because even if it is hard, He has something better for you.
I Will Trust -- John Mark McMilan
and just incase your looking for the answer to your questions today
Mark 11:22 "Have faith in God, Jesus answered"
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Monday, April 15, 2013
Let God be Your Bow
So those of you who know me well know that my husband is a worship leader at a local church and I play along with him at churches either on cello or violin. Recently, I had saved up and gotten a new bow for my violin and oohhh its so nice :) its made with pembucco wood and it is lighter than the general bow and plays like butter on the strings. Now I know this probably has no importance to you, but God uses sometimes the silliest of simple things to teach me things ( I am kinda a simple thinking person).
Now you see my violin is not of bad quality, but nothing super impressive. It plays well for what I need. But with this bow, my little violin resonated, I could feel the sound well up in the body of the violin and explode from it, filling the church I was playing in. With just the change of what I used to conduct my instrument, I empowered it, changing it from a nice violin to something extraordinary sounding.
It resonated with me that God uses us; old, tattered, and well abused violins and if we choose to let him direct us, and lead us, we can become something so beautiful. I think, as a christian especially, we get into the mode that God loves us and we are good to go. Golden, right? But it is soo important to daily note that were all old tattered violins. We all have flaws, we all have tendencies, weaknesses. And on our own, were just a box of wood held together with glue. But it is with God and His grace that we can shine and when we bring glory to Him, is when we fill the world with the sound of His love for us all. And what better song is there.
Just a thought :) and bite of what God showed me on Sunday when playing with my new bow I have been blessed with.
"My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you; my soul also, which you have redeemed"
Psalm 71:23
Now you see my violin is not of bad quality, but nothing super impressive. It plays well for what I need. But with this bow, my little violin resonated, I could feel the sound well up in the body of the violin and explode from it, filling the church I was playing in. With just the change of what I used to conduct my instrument, I empowered it, changing it from a nice violin to something extraordinary sounding.
It resonated with me that God uses us; old, tattered, and well abused violins and if we choose to let him direct us, and lead us, we can become something so beautiful. I think, as a christian especially, we get into the mode that God loves us and we are good to go. Golden, right? But it is soo important to daily note that were all old tattered violins. We all have flaws, we all have tendencies, weaknesses. And on our own, were just a box of wood held together with glue. But it is with God and His grace that we can shine and when we bring glory to Him, is when we fill the world with the sound of His love for us all. And what better song is there.
Just a thought :) and bite of what God showed me on Sunday when playing with my new bow I have been blessed with.
"My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you; my soul also, which you have redeemed"
Psalm 71:23
my little introduction to why this is here :)
Why a blog?
Well, the honest truth? I had it set on my heart.
For some time I have felt that there was a need for some online bible study. like a real one. not a lesson one from a book or video, more so filled with the grimy stuff of life.
Why now?
Looking at the things soon to come, I realized that I have thrown myself into this huge adventure of life and that I learn things each day that are worth sharing. I married young, and jumpstarted my career young. I also am a side photographer, violin teacher, horse competitor, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and possibly soon to be homeowner. Life is insane. And I am pretty sure we are all kind of there in one way or another. And with friends spread out in life stages and in different states I think we all need some good fellowship to come back to.
This blog is hopefully going to be a way to continue to connect with old and new friends. To inspire each other to live something different. To take a moment to get away from the world and live a better path. Mainly God's way. Because its pretty much way better then we can think of, although we all like to think we know what is best.
So the jist of this story. I will be on here once or twice a week, maybe more if i feel called to it, writing what is put on my heart and what I am learning and the adventures that my husband and I are going through (even if they are not the fun adventures). And for all my friends out there I hope we can kinda bounce of eachother's life stories and what we feel we are called to do/be. and if you like you can stalk this page and read what this crazy, God loving, time stressing, adventure seeking little lady is up to, and maybe join in if you like :)
Well, the honest truth? I had it set on my heart.
For some time I have felt that there was a need for some online bible study. like a real one. not a lesson one from a book or video, more so filled with the grimy stuff of life.
Why now?
Looking at the things soon to come, I realized that I have thrown myself into this huge adventure of life and that I learn things each day that are worth sharing. I married young, and jumpstarted my career young. I also am a side photographer, violin teacher, horse competitor, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and possibly soon to be homeowner. Life is insane. And I am pretty sure we are all kind of there in one way or another. And with friends spread out in life stages and in different states I think we all need some good fellowship to come back to.
This blog is hopefully going to be a way to continue to connect with old and new friends. To inspire each other to live something different. To take a moment to get away from the world and live a better path. Mainly God's way. Because its pretty much way better then we can think of, although we all like to think we know what is best.
So the jist of this story. I will be on here once or twice a week, maybe more if i feel called to it, writing what is put on my heart and what I am learning and the adventures that my husband and I are going through (even if they are not the fun adventures). And for all my friends out there I hope we can kinda bounce of eachother's life stories and what we feel we are called to do/be. and if you like you can stalk this page and read what this crazy, God loving, time stressing, adventure seeking little lady is up to, and maybe join in if you like :)
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